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Let's start the year with a sad tone. Don't you know baby I've been having trouble sleeping lately Sleeping two to three hours maybe Cause of my neverending anxiety Keeps haunting me Everything I do I have to think evidently  Yet everything I think kept screaming at me Baby We both came in this reality Different wombs different identity Different lives different mentality Why can't you see The only thing that we hold constantly Is trying to stand independently  Not to hustle any Only our own energy Baby I miss you and you miss me Writing this poem calms me Because I want to think wisely To choose the form of words carefully Trying not to hurt your feelings baby Everyday I wish for my death Everyday I wish for your kiss And I thought of you in every breath And I thought of you in every bliss Mind the vow that gradually fades Not to leave each other Not to destroy our rapture Not to maim my figure Not to hurt my lover It's been years but felt like decades I never told...

  Sleeping is a quest A quest to stop the present interpretation of the eyes, nose and mouth A quest for the brain to either stop or keep steering Either way, your body stayed In a place, at a time Sleeping is a ritual A ritual of repose Both for the phren and pneuma A ritual for the soul to enter the other realm Swayed by the mental unconsciously seeking Seeking of things one may never know Not many possessed the gift A beautiful dream to keep And a terrible nightmare to have Either way, your body stayed In a place, at a time Sleeping is a venture A venture of sanity or insanity You could only choose To be or not to be one To do or not to do things One choice At one time In one place Either way, your body stayed In a place, at a time Sleeping is a deed A deed with a price It can be good it can be bad It can be happy it can be sad The price must be paid with precious time Some may have and some may not But to some, with all the wealth It will never be enough No matter how much is p...

It's an old poem. But then again, everything here is old. It's getting harder and harder To breath  To stay awake To get out of bed To stay alive To get things done To wash this face To give a fuck It's been  a while Since I told some tales Everything's in a pile A pile of wails It's been harder and harder Just to move the lid  Where's all the ardour That I had when I was a kid There is no life Left in this body Nothing feels alive It just feels heavy It won't move away From this stone-hard bed My soul's been astray  Just like the dead These feelings I tried so hard To disregard Instead I'm falling apart Everyday, it keeps draining I started forgetting Am I breathing  So I tried to stop thinking And started doing Anything To keep my mind off things Although everything is really tiring I have to care To atleast care But when I do There's this thing That's always been there And it hurts  For no reason It's painful So...   So painful... It d...

Today I just lost a bestfriend No I just lost my title as a bestfriend No she's just misunderstood Never thought she would But it made me realize I never had one Since no one had a thought about me Or atleast good things to say about Funny how I claim I never need anybody Oh the things I shout Welp I'm a bad friend anyway Where was I when you needed me Where was my shoulder when you're falling I wasn't there to pickup the pieces I wasn't there to celebrate Sure hell wasn't there to make you smile again Memories come running down in piles Guilt and forced feelings throughout the years Yet one constant thing that made me smile Was knowing someone stayed and made it bearable Her her I stayed alive for her. It was a sword that was swung That split it into two No it's not broken It's just sliced Nothing happen Oh look how many knives there are Oh look how much that I've shoved It's been so long that I fo...

"How are you happy all the time?" Yeah I wonder that too What's so great about being a mime I keep it all inside that I forgot what's true That I can't control myself to forget I just do But then the wave comes And everything that's kept came bursting All the emotions kept coming Yet I still don't understand How come I don't recall What emotion I felt? I don't remember the angst I hate knowing that I was happy Even though been thrown shit and spit I was always happy I hate knowing that I was hurt My feelings were treated like dirt But I stayed happy So long Too long I forgot a lot of things And remembered unnecessary things They said leave the lies Remember what's nice I don't even know now What to feel I have to remind myself  When I'm happy When I'm angry Is it forced? How to feel? What is feel? Why we feel? Feelings are exhausting And I'm drained 3:22 ...

Maybe a thought Just a thought That you can be new In a place You can be you That you knew You can be a better you Who knew That that's you But thoughts are scary It can be frightening For what was once a thought Became something you ponder about Longer and longer It turns over It made you mad It made you sad It made you scared It made you dead Thoughts can keep you up at night And haunts you again in the broad daylight Whispering in you ear Disturbing what you hear Sometimes it make you furious Sometimes it make you bilious Be careful dear mind Please be fine. 2:31 a.m wolf

Lately I became unease Of things so easy Of things so little Yet this mind can't bear the angst Stupid Shit so stupid It's so stupid I cried It's so stupid I refuse to bide It's so stupid that I lied It's so stupid I'm screaming inside So loud that my body shivers The pain of discomfort lingers Discomfort in my own skin I scratch to every itch Yet all I attain is bleeding pain I woke up at night Cry and cry Why can't I just die Yet too many thoughts gushing in my mind Voices screaming I could barely bind I can't do it to my mom I can't shame my dad I can't let them spend More to my waste Thoughts Are haunting It disturbs you In ways you can't envisage Shit makes me repeat things I don't want to Just to have balance of imbalance I can't even perceive! - wolf

Why is there No more air No more titter echoes Only teardrops in the hollows Sink into the bottomless pit Of solitary The only thing that's lit Is this faint gleam Of the beating heart Slowly dimming Waiting for lights out Once was amused By the joke titled life That went beyond How ignorant one can be Believing that it was easy To be happy To be joyous In this world of mercenary How ungracious To have a chance to breathe Yet still spilling cavil between the teeth  Sigh  Okay Let it be Let it glitter Just for a little while While waiting for it to stop lit I'll carry this pannier I'll jest to the ones who hear About this daughter Who believed in the hereafter Became a slaughter Of her own rapture Waiting for the end of her The one who's tenderness was her greatest power This is the death of her laughter 3:39 a.m wolf

No poems. Just dropping one of my playlist :) - wolf  

Waited for the time to come Waited for the precious moment to arrive To be with you To greet you and be greeted to To share laughs once more To share sweet dreams between me and you For I have gone a little while I eager for your smile Yet, I saw something I'm not suppose to.. You throw me too I know it's too good to be true That you needed me like I need you I'm the one to blame for the things you do I'm the one to blame that we always argue.. Shattered Eyes leaked Nose runny Wet cheeks Swollen face Heart ache Head ache Tired frown Tired face That's what happen When the dam broke Trying to regain Peace of mind But only attain Throbbing migraine  Can you feel it?  Tight chest It's hard to breath  Panting Trying to suck air But all it did is suffocating  Straining to weep But only wailing Expressing pain is pain itself Pain I can't stomach Harsh cries Be it in silent The quite scr...

Can I tell you a secret? Do you know why I'm in pain? Sit down and let me explain When you have something that you can't contain You let your tears pour down like rain Forsaking it all and let it drain Your serenity will then regain I for one am not a vane I am not just penny plain I can't follow the chain All those things that I can't attain All the agony I manage to retain I  can barely sustain I am complex I can't complain Shattered to pieces my smile remain My tears won't drop even when I strain Tried to scream but all in vain Tried to let go again and again But all I got is migraine I think I'm slowly going insane /tɛː/ ; won't pour screeches ; /ɪnˈɔːdɪb(ə)l/ 2:59 a.m wolf

The room is a little too small The wall is a little too thin Curled like a big round ball Too cold to be touched by skin A muffle is enough to make wonder Questioning ones own worth Spilling arraignment without ponder Doubting ones self birth Listen Can you hear it? Can you hear the shriek? Can you feel the wail? Can you get a peek? Can you see the ail? Can't you catch the hint? Can't you grasp the game? Can't you hand a stint? Can't you take the blame? Drowning in tears Shifting insane In a room of fears Whimpering in pain 1:11 a.m   wolf

The most painful feeling Is when you want to cry so bad So bad But you can't You can't You want to scream so much So much Your heart aches from holding the pain Aches You built up those feelings inside and tried to buried it Deep inside Over and over and over again And then you put up a show Day after day Again and again. Buat apa pun salah.   - wolf  

I'm floating I don't know what am I being I'm just floating  Float Float like a boat On the cold chilled ocean I started to bloat  Swallowing my emotion  On nothingness Oh the emptiness That was my own creation My willingness of sacrification   Yet I'm basking in the seclusion Yet I'm dreading isolation Yet I'm savouring the placid Yet I have drowned Into my own solitude Now I'm floating Trying to find reasons. " Take a break and start again " - ray   - wolf

  Beggarly in relating to the mundane Hiding the spits of utter hideousness  Waiting for the mind to wenden insane Waiting for the raid of merciless Before the demands of a degree of lunacy Arrives at the fringe of wit Hand a little fate of succour Before what's glowing stops to lit Perceive the damned and the damaged Discern to what's been pour Gaze to the ones who's been mismanaged Glance to the blood and gore Terrestrial in forsaken Living in definite solitary My oh my for the mistaken Benevolence and hostility With much vehemence gobbled up inside Await for it to detonate Own knowledge for what to abide Cumulate the ones who reciprocate   - wolf

Who am I? What am I? Why am I? Is it worth it? Worth it is it? It worth is it? Am I wrong? Am I right? Am I anything in sight? Like a wounded reindeer they cull the herd With a broken wing I am that bird Spitting retaliatory girds So much to say too many words Too much to do so little time All that is spoken are filled with grime Being deceitful is my crime  All these terms I tried to rhyme Sometimes its white sometimes its cloudy Sometimes its light sometimes its heavy Here I am failing miserably Trying to find my identity   - wolf

Mediator Isolated In seek of ones own value Judged unintended In searching for a better view Dreamers Is what's been called To these visionaries Explorer of ideas For the ones who are wilting We know what we are but know not what we may be  " All that is gold does not glitter Not all those who wander are lost The old that is strong does not wither Deep roots are not reached by the frost "                                     - J.R.R Tolkien   - wolf

My laughter is boring The melody is cringing The act I'm pulling I keep faking Everything It's tiring It's torturing I keep feeling Guilty of lying Can't you see I'm fading I don't think I can hold it much longer Sooner or later I'll change for the better The me you see Is a liar She's not real She's dead The me you see Is a traitor From her own self She's guilty Of her own death. - wolf

What's now blooming Is wilting What's started from the beginning Is now ending What's living Slowly dying No more laughing Tears shedding Smile's fading Skin's aging Body's tiring Heart's crying Mind's maddening Thoughts terrifying Brain's overthinking Pain's throbbing Silence and screaming Are the same thing Feelings are numbing Self dissapearing Lost and hiding Soul's weakening Hand's shaking Trigger pulling Arm's aiming Mouth's panting Shot's hearing Blood spilling Darkness consuming   - wolf

For I have sin Asked to be forgiven What's hidden within Is unspoken Every wrong doing Always been regretting I keep saying I'm going to stop these acting But I keep repeating The same thing I keep on praying To keep changing To be a better human being Yet I keep undertaking For the devil's tasking Crying crying I keep on sinning I still trying Stopping these sinisterly playing I keep misbehaving While quitting Not realizing Slowly killing Every feeling More sinning It's digusting I am fading Inside still hoping That I'll keep on improving For a better life For a better me Keep repeating same words cause I suck at trying to make a poem. It's not a poem though I tried. Typed by : wolf