my poems sucks

Today I just lost a bestfriend No I just lost my title as a bestfriend No she's just misunderstood Never thought she would But it made me realize I never had one Since no one had a thought about me Or atleast good things to say about Funny how I claim I never need anybody Oh the things I shout Welp I'm a bad friend anyway Where was I when you needed me Where was my shoulder when you're falling I wasn't there to pickup the pieces I wasn't there to celebrate Sure hell wasn't there to make you smile again Memories come running down in piles Guilt and forced feelings throughout the years Yet one constant thing that made me smile Was knowing someone stayed and made it bearable Her her I stayed alive for her. It was a sword that was swung That split it into two No it's not broken It's just sliced Nothing happen Oh look how many knives there are Oh look how much that I've shoved It's been so long that I fo...

"How are you happy all the time?" Yeah I wonder that too What's so great about being a mime I keep it all inside that I forgot what's true That I can't control myself to forget I just do But then the wave comes And everything that's kept came bursting All the emotions kept coming Yet I still don't understand How come I don't recall What emotion I felt? I don't remember the angst I hate knowing that I was happy Even though been thrown shit and spit I was always happy I hate knowing that I was hurt My feelings were treated like dirt But I stayed happy So long Too long I forgot a lot of things And remembered unnecessary things They said leave the lies Remember what's nice I don't even know now What to feel I have to remind myself  When I'm happy When I'm angry Is it forced? How to feel? What is feel? Why we feel? Feelings are exhausting And I'm drained 3:22 ...

Maybe a thought Just a thought That you can be new In a place You can be you That you knew You can be a better you Who knew That that's you But thoughts are scary It can be frightening For what was once a thought Became something you ponder about Longer and longer It turns over It made you mad It made you sad It made you scared It made you dead Thoughts can keep you up at night And haunts you again in the broad daylight Whispering in you ear Disturbing what you hear Sometimes it make you furious Sometimes it make you bilious Be careful dear mind Please be fine. 2:31 a.m wolf

Lately I became unease Of things so easy Of things so little Yet this mind can't bear the angst Stupid Shit so stupid It's so stupid I cried It's so stupid I refuse to bide It's so stupid that I lied It's so stupid I'm screaming inside So loud that my body shivers The pain of discomfort lingers Discomfort in my own skin I scratch to every itch Yet all I attain is bleeding pain I woke up at night Cry and cry Why can't I just die Yet too many thoughts gushing in my mind Voices screaming I could barely bind I can't do it to my mom I can't shame my dad I can't let them spend More to my waste Thoughts Are haunting It disturbs you In ways you can't envisage Shit makes me repeat things I don't want to Just to have balance of imbalance I can't even perceive! - wolf

Why is there No more air No more titter echoes Only teardrops in the hollows Sink into the bottomless pit Of solitary The only thing that's lit Is this faint gleam Of the beating heart Slowly dimming Waiting for lights out Once was amused By the joke titled life That went beyond How ignorant one can be Believing that it was easy To be happy To be joyous In this world of mercenary How ungracious To have a chance to breathe Yet still spilling cavil between the teeth  Sigh  Okay Let it be Let it glitter Just for a little while While waiting for it to stop lit I'll carry this pannier I'll jest to the ones who hear About this daughter Who believed in the hereafter Became a slaughter Of her own rapture Waiting for the end of her The one who's tenderness was her greatest power This is the death of her laughter 3:39 a.m wolf

No poems. Just dropping one of my playlist :) - wolf  

Waited for the time to come Waited for the precious moment to arrive To be with you To greet you and be greeted to To share laughs once more To share sweet dreams between me and you For I have gone a little while I eager for your smile Yet, I saw something I'm not suppose to.. You throw me too I know it's too good to be true That you needed me like I need you I'm the one to blame for the things you do I'm the one to blame that we always argue.. Shattered Eyes leaked Nose runny Wet cheeks Swollen face Heart ache Head ache Tired frown Tired face That's what happen When the dam broke Trying to regain Peace of mind But only attain Throbbing migraine  Can you feel it?  Tight chest It's hard to breath  Panting Trying to suck air But all it did is suffocating  Straining to weep But only wailing Expressing pain is pain itself Pain I can't stomach Harsh cries Be it in silent The quite scr...